Who and Why

I was raised in rural Arkansas. I enjoyed life as a child I guess. I lived on a farm with my Great Aunt up until I was 12 years old. I had brief times during these years that I lived with my mother, however I lived with my Great Aunt ninety nine percent of the time. I was an active kid I guess. I was always outside doing something. With only 3 channels to watch, yeah I would rather be climbing a tree or swinging on a rope in the hayloft. 

 

I was never a favorite of the guys that I went to school with in the way of girlfriend material. Now playing football or other sports that was a different story. Once I moved, that kind of changed. While I didn’t have a boyfriend for a while. I was still “little sis” to a lot of the guys. Okay so 5 foot tall and a large chest can go a long way sometimes. My best friend Tawnya and I were always doing something. Whether it being hanging out with the rest of our friends or playing sports. Volleyball was our favorite. You didn’t put us on opposite teams. We would try to kill each other, it was easier to put us on the same team and no one else got hurt. I sometimes miss those days. I was active every day then, even during the summer. I had a nice tan, toned body, and honey blonde hair. Okay so swimming was my favorite thing to do during the summer.

I got pregnant with my daughter at 17. I had been 135 lbs for years. While I didn’t gain a large large amount of weight, she was 9 lbs 4 oz, I still had a bit of trouble getting the weight off. I was working and eventually got back to around 145. After having the boys in my early 20’s getting the weight off was harder. John was 7 lbs 15 oz and Devin was 9 lbs 10 oz. Yes I had 2 large babies. LOL

I managed to get down to 168 when I got a nice knock back. A cheating husband can really do a number on a person. My weight went up and down during this time. I was diagnosed with manic depression then I went untreated for years.

When Joe and I got married my weight went up. My grandmother became ill, suffered a series of strokes and died. Also during the beginning of my grandmothers illness, my mother became ill and we almost lost her.  I started being treated for the depression and then was diagnosed as Bi-Polar II. Some of the medications, yeah I won’t be taking them again that is for sure. I ran a gambit of various “cocktails”. Thankfully I have a good combination now that seems to work for me.

Now I am being a new journey. Before my surgery I weighted anywhere from 203 to 220. My weight would fluctuate but I could never keep it off no matter what. I finally made the decision and here I am. Joe didn’t realize just how drastic my surgery was until I should him a picture of what they were going to do. He became more supportive of what I was doing and still supports me. When I break down and cry or when I want so much to eat a big juicy steak. I am lucky to have him.